Re-Charging

A good friend of our family recently wrote a post in her wonderful blog on recharging. I love the post and the idea, but I always hesitate to reply to people on stuff like this.
You see, I'm not a Christian, in a family of devout followers. My mother, brother, Grandparents and sisters...my son even, are all church followers and church attenders. They are absolutely confident in their faith that their way is THE way. And I find in reading stuff they post or read, that a lot of times Christians view anybody who is not a Christian as....less. Or wrong. (Wrong comes up a lot, even here amongst family...) And nobody likes to be told they are wrong..over and over again. I never set out to start an argument of faith...just to express my beliefs and opinions. But I've found so often that the best thing to do is just...not reply. Stay quiet and keep my faith to myself.

I'm not a Christian, but I'm very spiritual. I do like to take time to "recharge" that spirituality, that connection with the Divine that is around us all. I need that time just as well as anybody else. Maybe the manner I do it in is a little different (no bible) but I still spend plenty of daytime hours in prayer. I even answer the "prayer chain" calls that my mom gets from her church, but often guiltily wondering if the people I'm praying for will be offended that I'm praying for them to MY God (Or God, as I see Him..) Perhaps so. The trouble is, that this comes dangerously close to breaking one of the cardinal rules of my religion, doing something for somebody without their knowledge or asking.

So, how do I, the non-christian woman, recharge? God is everywhere, as I believe, in all things, moving in the spaces between matter. The druids had a saying that "All that is not matter is God" and I believe that, His breath is in everything, the spark that keeps worlds in motions, the force of air and light and water. The thing that makes it all "click". To worship is to be around all that is. Outdoors, indoors. The fundamental elements are earth, air, fire and water. Each with a cardinal point on the compass, each with a list of symbolisms and meanings to go with them spirtually. But it's no more complicated than being in the presence of each, aware of each and the power that inheritantly lies within. Each is useless without the other, it's a cycle of dependance where life would not exist if everything didn't come together. Nothing more is needed for "worship" in my mind that reflecting on that, on the Divine spark. The breath of life.

There's more to it if you wanted to delve deeper, but I won't go into it, or into the nitty gritty details of my religion/faith here. I just wanted to reply, feeling I guess a bit torn in this world surrounded by a feeling of "not belonging" amongst friends and family.